back to sch with a....er

its monday...3 days since tt thing happened. till nw actually i am still somehow affected by it but nt as much. yesterday i manage to find my confidence and courage back to chatting with her. i was staring at my com then. wondering should i chat with her anot for like an hr to 2 hr or so. in my heart then i really wanted to chat with her but hor, i dun knw how to start chatting with her. as wat i think i had said in previous post is tt, when i needed her the most she hurtz me.... this hurt was so bad lor. but the only think tt can heal me is........ then near 11pm then i also dun know y i manage to find the confidence back. think cos i read her blog tts y and also thru somethinking ba. thou my confidence are all nt back yet but i still can manage for the time being ba. i did shed alittle tears when i was chatting with her again. but was jus alittle de.
then today we met up and went to sch together. then kenny was also the same as me. think he was affected more ba. he seems very depress. actually i was also jus tt i didnt really show. all was hidden up.
then i came to sch alot ppl was asking am i alrite anot. other than this, some even asked who the gal. i didnt wan to say. cos i dun wan others to say abt her. i still luv her, i wanted to protect her from all the comments others will say... but i guess some will know wats going on la. then gt one...the comment i us cant take it. i took another hit from the words tt person said. those words kind of like hit me to my bottom down again. i was really affected by those words sia but i didnt wan to make a fuss abt so i jus replied with thx. i already knew tt. haiz. y tt person is always the one tt will makes me so down. others are concerned abt me i think. at least they know how to watch out for their hurtful comments. i am already so down le, if wan to show concern at least watch out for the comments made la. if nt jus keep quiet.
then todays de work for presentation hor also almost killed me. but heng its work. i can jus take it as i no mood to do but it still affect me some how la. but i still can.
then after sch knew tt she going to causeway point..wanted to follow but found out the bf is joining them after his ut so i decided to go home lor. was abt to go home alone but heng saw my friend on the way to station so wen back with him. oh also la i nv 4get fredy and tobias walk to station with me la. we joked while we walk la. saw tobi de er...hahhaa a gal la...hehe he was so paiseh trying to avoid he...haiz. dun know y he like tt. i was to c my gal but mei you ji hui but he gt the chance to c someone he dun wan c. haha

i am still thinking but actually i already know part of wat i am gonna do after tt thing le. i've kind of like decided... but i really need time to 4get this inorder to cont?? or should i jus cont and 4get in the process??
Monday, May 29, 2006 6:19 PM

Its Another Day in Life