mixed feelings
haiz...dun know i should be happy??sad??angry??or pissed...+fan... haiz
yesterday had both happy and angry day. cos in sch was happy cos had fun playing game. then also happy to c ah ma feeling nt bad. then angry cos tt small cousin was so naughty she bu ting hua de. wan jiu shi wan. then yesterday hor at hospital she wen to c the nurse drew blood from the patient!!! when then curtain up she open up and wen in there to c sia. she is so.....
then today was in sch doing fyp. managed to do alittle thing. but hor after getting back to lab from lunch. bro msn me saying ah ma was like in a bad condition. i was scared. my hand was shivering when i was packing my things. i wanted to cry out but nv. i rush down to hospital and all was there liao. aunt say dun all go in cos scared ah ma might suspect something. haiz... all the medical equipment was removed from her when she was in tt bad condition but ard 2 hr after i reach..... the hospital stuff say back to normal liao-_-" we were all so shock when they say maybe cant make it liao my ah ma... then was alittle relived lor after hearing tt she is back to normal alittle. haiz... then my tt small cousin is there again disturbing ppl again. so angry with her! den i jus gt home.... but was like pissed.
cos....
over at hospital they were discussing if something really happen where will i b living. mother sugested going back to bishan to live. but i WILL NOT. i dun really like tt place. tt place to me is like a jail nothing but jail. my uncle and aunts very good say they gt no comment. and welcome me to stay. they will nt "close" the "door" 4 me... then gt home b4 i was going to bathe... mother suddenly cried and asked me go back home.... she say everyone in the family dun like my father cos he jus cant make it.. dun wanna go work de. i also dun really like father's attitude. he always lazy to work and give stupid excuse. then anything also depends on mother. haiz really dun know how....
I DUN WANNA GO BACK TO TT BISHAN TO STAY.... REALLY IN A BAD BAD MOOD NW...
THEY JUS DIDNT CANT ABT HW I FEEL. ONLY CARE ABT THEMSELVES. JUS HATE IT
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
9:45 PM
Its Another Day in Life